So I cried in Starbucks today…

That’s right I just burst in to tears over my cinnamon swirl and mango and passion fruit juice drink thing.

I had come with my Mum to look for work trousers and I don’t know which was more upsetting; the thought of having to wear uncomfortable clothes or the thought of going back to work.

Of course it is the latter.

I have mixed feelings about going back to work, I love my job and the people I work with are amazing.

I’ve also got an altered view on priorities since the kids moved in. I plan to have a work/life balance not just a work/work balance.

But I feel so sad today, kick in the pit of the tummy sad. Because no matter how much they can drive me to complete distraction, I am going to really really miss my gorgeous, funny, clever children and the massive amount of time we get to spend together.

I know we will all adjust and I will love being able to pee on my own and talk about things other than paw patrol and yoghurt. But it genuinely hurts my heart when I think about not spending as much time with them. But I am going to really try and make the time I do spend with them as special as I possibly can.

2 thoughts on “So I cried in Starbucks today…

  1. EssexKate

    You got this mumma.
    It’s such a tough divide when you love work, but miss being with your children too. Plus if you start enjoying work too much you can feel guilty about it. I think having children makes us better at our jobs as we are used to achieving amazing things in short spaces of time. And it can make us better mums because we have more energy to focus on the kids when we are home.
    I hope it all works out for you.

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  2. Pauline Best

    Hang in there. Reading your blog brought back memories of my first day back after adopting my two boys. It took a few weeks to settle, but once that happened, we all found our groove and bedtimes and weekends are now that much more special. It’s so hard to balance motherhood with career, but we can do it!

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